可怜

有时候觉得自己很可怜

好累

到底活着是为了什么

等时间过

想太多不好

希望红酒今晚也能让我睡好

Exam fever

I am going to sit for the LAST formal exam in my life! (Well.. I hope that's true)

This study week is slightly different from the past 5 study weeks in NUS. Feel not so stress, feel like this is not so important anymore. I just have to make sure that I pass all the exams. Not aiming for the numbers. I just hope to maintain and graduate!!!! =) While studying, my mind is full of my future plans! Moving to Bedok, trip to China, how I want to play to the MAX before my pre-reg programme starts. ><" Play play play. I just want to relax and do nothing.

Mum called me twice in this study week. Worry for me and my sis in her very cute way! Lol. She called me so many times when she heard of the news of NUS dentistry student committed suicide. And the next day, my sis told me the news of using phychostimulant drugs to stay awake without feeling tired. Just that night that I get informed, my mum called to warn me not to use the drugs. And, the move of my ma calling is under the prediction of my sis! LOL. My ma is so cute!

Talking about the two news, the news of committed suicide sadden me most. Hmm.. Why like that??? I can understand how ones feel when you are really down and depressed but... That is the time of stop those thinking and go to someone.. Or some place or do anything else that can prevent you to do something foolish. Don't ever give up your life in such a foolish way. =( If I were to give my life, I'll make it as meaningful as possible. At least make my sacrifice beneficial to other human beings on this world. I wonder is there any way that I can die peacefully without hurting or poisoning my body so that my organs can be donated to ppl who need them. I wonder if I can die together with those terrorist if killing them require another life. Lol. Well.. I know I am thinking too much again. Lalalala~ Exam is just too boring~ XD

Ok. Time to get back to study. People! Treasure your life. There will always be happiness after some low tide. =) Aja aja fighting!!!!!!

Home

I promise you that this is not going to be another emo post. =P

Went home and recharge! Pace and even breathing seems slower at home but driving is not. Lol. I really enjoyed the weekend. Sis's 21st birthday. Went Sing K with family, another kind of atmosphere. =) Went for YuanHui's baby full moon dinner. Met and talked to different kind of people, I mean, uncles and aunties that we met first time. They chat with us in a different tone now. Treating us like adult whom they can share their experience and thinking with. Met frens and chat for hours and ate lots of good food too! A wonderful weekend indeed! *Happy*

Did some thinking job over the weekend. Some future things to settle. Hope everything will turn out fine. Bless me. ><"

Back to S'pore today. Glad that I have private car to send me back to NUS. Was sitting in the car looking over to the people taking bus. Jam and rush and the feeling of leaving home. Hmm.. I guess I am really lucky because my home is not so far and I have people that bring me happiness and care about me. Love you all. *shy*

Can't wait for the next time to go home. Now... Where should I start with my work???

Cry

Gosh.. A state of drowsiness and emoness...

I am crying like crazy.