What is the situation.

So what is the situation now also I don't know. It takes two to bring one relationship together. How can it be when I let go then everything will be gone. So disappointing on the situation now. What else can I hope for? Why do I always have to meet with this kind of situation. Can you just wake up from your dream soon. I really need someone that really treasure me but not neglecting like this. Ah... I don't know what I am talking about. Really tired of my life. Till when only I can find the love of my life, the one that will really treat me good? Please let it be soon.

So is this what you want?

My dream is to travel around to see the world. This is what get me going. But with the budgets and realistic issues kick in. Do I still persist as much as I wanted to? I don't know. Need some supportive strength to get me going.

It is not healthy to get your social circle to round and round around one person only. And so I am trying to get together with the others as well. But seems like everyone is so busy with their own agenda. Sad to admit that, I do not have much close friends. Unbalance oh.

If you know that I like to travel much then why can't you just entertain me with just some small small trip if your intention is to minimised spending. Your vision is to work on your future I support you fully. But, can you just let me have something to look forward to?

Now tell me. What should I do?

Stagnant

Never sign in to blogspot quite a while aldy. Surprisingly, everything have changed. Feel so foreign.

Had been a registered pharmacist for one whole year.What have I achieve? Is this really what I wanted? It will be so much easier that I know what do I want to achieve in my life. At least more specifically. Then I can just works towards the passion that I should have. Feel so stagnant. How do I get myself to improve? Get myself involved in more activities is not a good idea because that is just pure "sai gang". Do I get myself to stay in this company when the direction is more towards sales and figures rather than talk about staff's benefit? What should I do?

Getting quite tired with my work. The people that I see. Oh well. I admit. I am not being very positive. I have lost my positivity. How do I maintain my job satisfaction when the person that I see everyday is like getting more and more irritating. I know, this is because of my perspective as well and so I will mind and take notice more of the irritation and lost my patience. Oh well.. But I am really losing the patience. I don even want to see any human during my off time, except those that I am comfortable with, which I don't need to frame up myself, which I can just relax and rest.

Now tell me what should I do? Oh please let me know my direction of life soon. Some spend their whole lifetime searching for the answer for this question. And so.. what will happen to me then?

Expectation

What should I expect what can I expect and what should I not expecting that at all!?

Crash down. Don't want to face anything don't want to see you! Childish and selfish thinking!

I hate you I hate you I hate myself! I hate my fortunate or unfortunate life!

Damn it. Let the world end. Because I have enough of all the world already. All my want is to earn enough money and travel around the world. Yeah. Whatever is it, maybe I should be more selfish as well.

Yeah I am not correct mind right now. I am certainly not. Whatever. Life sucks. As always. No more positive charge just let me crash to the bottom.