Shake the unhappiness away!!!!

Argh!!! super unhappy!!! Unable to protect my staff! Another stealing case! Emo emo emo!!! Down down down! Trying hard to shake the unhappiness away now!!! Rock it away! Shake it away with SNSD songs! Lol. Not a big fan of SNSD... but their song does make me feel better. So, continue! Let's rock it!!!

Of thinking too much?

Long hours of working make me a unhappy person. Well.. is that what you want?

Anyway, tonight is a Sodagreen night. And of course, the X factor show on Channel 5.

Late night

Late night

Don't wish to sleep (even thou I need to do so)

Let's listen to some good songs from the talented young ones. Love them.

*Smile*

Changes

Another changes in life. I am no longer holding any special pass in Singapore. Got my PR status two weeks ago and I just collected the PR identity card today. Hope that it will be a good changes.

Went back home for two days and decided on a year end trip to Thailand. Air ticket booked. That will be my second time of flying alone in my life. I will be flying back from Phuket to Sg as I gotta rush back to work and it will be quite late if I am going to take car with my family. Will be quite a fresh experience as we will be driving up to Thailand. OMG. Wonder that will break my back or not. And, it will be our own self guide trip to Thailand. Gotta start learning thai lo. Haha...

Keep thinking about future recently. And today, finally have some fresh light and some motivation. Hope will really work out fine with him and carry on my life in a healthy method. Lol. Hope he will co-operate with me and bring out the bright future that I hope we will be. Hee..

Gotta do stg to improve myself lo. Going to apply library card and learn stg. Maybe go learn sewing? lol. First thing is to learn thai first ba. haha...

Where am I heading to

No direction and lost

Just busy and always rushing

In search for my meaning of life

my direction

Hope I will see lights soon

In the meanwhile

I have no choice but to keep moving forward

In a fast and always rushing pace

Non stop

Hoping for the best

When things are changed. We changed. When things got chance and there is some hope, why not just give it a try. We are trying our best to make things out. If you do not support. Fine.

A real supporter are those people that do not judge and give you negative comment only. A real supporter is the one that have trust in you to face all challenge, and when things really can't work out, won't say things like:" see what I had told you."

Seriously, I do not know how things will turn out. But, I am hoping for the best.


Meh meh Jia you.

我我我我我

又回来了。好久好久没有来这里了。也好久好久没有停下脚步来想想，停下脚步沉淀以下。。

工作，还好，还在学习中，偶尔还会蛮lost的。but so far so good la. Not bad I will say.

感 情，厚！这个就乱了。哈哈。还蛮喜欢现在这样的距离，这样的联络。忙到没什么时间和姐妹们大玩特玩, 认识了一大班一起打Volleyball的朋友，一起玩一起闹~ 很想念家人哦。很希望他们能搬来和我一起住。。。


我要去旅行，我要去玩耍，我要一直开开心心的。=)

Sometimes

Sometime people appear in a certain period of your life for a certain reason

Sometime you hope that you are in a better situation

Sometime you feel that you are actually quite fortunate

Sometime you find that you are quite lost and do not know what to do and where to go

Sometime you are happy for just a simple small matter

Sometime you do things without thinking of the consequences

Sometime you get hurt but you are trying hard to not noticing it

Sometime I feel that I act like a 100% female, think a lot and always changing. Awwwww! Lol

First roaster!

Received the first roaster for my career lo. Butterfly butterfly... butterfly in the stomach. Excited and worry somehow. Will be in Tampines area, pharmacies that I never been before... Will need time to get familiar with the environment, ppl and location of things over there. Gotta go for meals alone too. Meh... don't like... but no choice la. Half an hour meal time, should be quite fast.

Hmmm.... First few days, what I can foresee is I will be playing hide and seek with the medicine. I will have the "oh no... sorry... but pls bear with me kind of face" to show my patients. And the web cam dispensing. I have to tell myself that, no worry! After a few times and then you will get familiar with it! Argh... Things will be better when I get familiar with it. Just a few weeks of orientation for myself. Lol. Just hope my IBS symptoms won't be too scary. I will surely have diarrhea whenever there is new challenge coming up. Sweat.

Wear my lucky colour to go to work and everything will be all right. HAhahaha....

摩羯座

也许会不太忍心说这个星座，因为它象征坚忍，耐心和悲情

指数都很靠前，为了友情和爱情能够达到一个无法想象的极限，不抛弃，不分开，哪怕不是对方的爱，但是也不纠缠，厚道直白的摩羯纵使有太多的软弱，也抵不住它天生悲观的使者角色，如果你爱上摩羯，你得到的会是平凡的温暖和永远的爱，如果你不爱摩羯，摩羯会在静默中给予你想要的自由和未来。

But I thought there is another one more constellation coming in? So, is it still true?

体验

有时候单枪匹马久了还是会累。没办法，只能继续为自己加油。我会变得越来越坚强，开心。 =）为有简单的幸福而感到温暖。

要去旅行了哦。又会有新的体验了！ o(^_^)o

End of the world?

Worry about the condition of the world. What is happening? Earth quake, flood and weather changes. Is it really true that the end of the world is coming soon and the prediction of 2012 movie is rather appear to be logical now?

Live life like this is the last day of your life. Have you wonder about this before? If the end of the world is really coming soon, do I still live life like normal? Like as in the condition now? What are the things that you really want to do in your life but you haven't done that?

Hope everything will be all right soon.

给他的

读得差不多了。结果又把我们的事重新想了一遍。

从暧昧到开始，我的不安和猜测，到你教我怎么爱，你的包容，我们的KL trip,峰傻傻的陪我一起笑； Aust trip.我们没有fyp，我stress，我们吵架，我一直要把你弄得完美的要求，一次又一次的给你的考验,到中国旅行，我们牵着手跑在我们的世博，我们甜蜜的在西湖的最后一晚，到回来，到新家，到峰帕脚臭穿我的鞋上楼见老板，到新生活的不适应，我继续考验你，我们的压力让我们无法继续，一次又一次的到边缘，我却没有醒过来。“你很好，只是你的脾气让我们走不下去。”峰，我同意。但我领悟得太迟。对不起。是我的要求，是我的好胜心，是我的脾气，是我的掘强，让我们越走越远。

“我想回去，我们根本就不适合，在一起也不会有幸福的。继续走，不要停下来。”我知道。我知道，我错得太多，回不去了。我却还抓着不放。对不起。那一碗粥，洒在你脸上，你一定是在想∶“我受够了。假如她爱我，她一定不会那么做的。我们真的不能再继续了。”

对不起。我知道，就算是我说了多少次对不起也没办法弥补你的痛。所以我只是在惩罚我自己。对不起。峰。。。要让我们的感情来让我学会这些。我没有任何理由，再把你留在身边，所以，你不用再担心我，或担心我会要挽回，好吗？

谢谢你让我学会，爱一个人是怎么样的。我要逼自己关掉我们的布罗格了。不然我走不出去啊。此刻，我很想要峰的抱抱哦。*微笑* 请相信，我真的很爱你。只是一直学不会。我还是一样的那么笨，Sigh...

峰，去寻找你的幸福吧。希望你偶尔还会想起我。你说过我们以后还是会互相支持的哦。希望我们两个会找到自己各自的幸福。为生活而努力吧！加油。=）

Conquer by Emo-ness

Argh.. I lost.
GG
Lost to the reality
Cry like a pipe leaking
Dead
And yet,
gotta act to be strong

新年新希望

不知道是不是老了，好多的感慨和感触。=) 新年回家，平静的和家人过了个有意义的新年，读了本好书，去了个好地方，和朋友相聚，我也睡了好多 =P

去了傅光山东禅寺。我怂恿爸爸去的哦! (骄傲，哈）要去就去玩，因为公公的去世，不能拜年我们就去玩咯。不错的美，不错的也很多人，一路上也有好多车相伴。

One Malaysia rabbits? Lol

希望世界和平，大家幸福快乐

买了份礼物给自己，希望今年也会有好多好的领悟。不要太痛就好。><"

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昨晚回到来时，以为自己会emo呢。这离家的转变，讨厌。幸好有我两个可爱的housemate一大一小的下楼来接我，还害我感动一下。幸好我在这里还有你们呢。

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好吧。就来想一想人生大道理。哈，不好笑。今年，我也要做好多东西，有好多目标。最总要的是要学会知足常乐。去年，因为自己的不知足常乐而断送了幸福，那也只能怪我们不成熟吧。用痛学会了大道理，所以假如有下一段，我一定要学乖。=P 不只是感情，生活中任何事都要知足常乐。不管遇到任何是要努力尽力，如果不如意可以emo一下下就好，因为我emo时很丑。什么理由啦。哈哈。是因为不开心很伤身啦。

Competency exam. 最后一个大大考了吧。考完了，休息去玩够够力，回来就可以好好努力赚钱，去学笛子，读好书，优哉游哉地过~开心~ 好咯，先从努力拚完Pre-reg开始，啊~太relax会变懒惰。><"

祝大家兔年，‘兔’飞猛进。Wah... So cheesy. =P

And so where do you go from here.

Went to another talk this morning. A good one, at least the first half of the talk was good! Wish to get the list of books that the the speaker mention and start reading them. But, think that it will be super long till I can do that. Project presentation and stocktake coming, then VIVA then gotta rush to set in in new house and out of the sudden, it is CNY aldy. Oh my... there is hardly time to slow down to rest. What about after CNY, most properly end up rushing paper work and busy trying to end the whole pre-reg. Gosh... How I wish this pre-reg can end soon and so at least I can go back home and rest for a week at least.

Argh... And so where do I go from here. I want to discover life. I want to know what I can do. I want to find out what is the meaning of my life.

Hate project writing. Seriously not something that I can do. ='(

动荡不安

这是个动荡不安的年代。忘了我是谁，为什么而活，要的是什么，什么可以让人相信，什么是危险，什么是什么。

没有目标的前进。我只知道，没有什么是绝对的。

把自己练得冷冰冰的。没有什么感觉，刀枪不入，也许就是最好的方法吧。

我会活过这个动荡不安的年代的。